Okay. You know what? Just like the joy I felt at getting a pass in finance, I am rather pissed at myself even though I have 3 distinctions.

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Session Course Title Result
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T2 ACCT2542 Corporate Financial Reporting….74 CR
T2 LEGT2721 Business Transactions…………75 DN
T2 POLS2023 Globalisation & Uneven Dev’t…..79 DN
T2 PSYC1011 Psychology 1B………………..82 DN
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Term WAM: 77.500 Overall WAM: 74.938 Undergraduate
Provisional Academic Standing : Good Standing

Just one mark in accounting and I would have a distinction, but even worse, overall, 1 more mark would have meant that I wouldn’t be 0.062 marks away from a distinction average.

I have failed in my aim…
But I suppose it is my fault for doing so crap in the exams because I didn’t put in enough effort..

I feel like crying.

Why make goals when you cannot fulfill them?

Making use of hot pink and lime green in a surprisingly alright way. Well. hopefully.

Colour scheme was very random. But hopefully okay. Takes similar colours from Rozen because I’m lazy but as that’s been up for more than a year… well. Eep.
There’ll be some bits of abnormal colour here and there but overall I think its okay.
Then again, being deep pink and lime green on some monitors it might look tragic. [For some reason it doesn’t look quite right on my 22″ for example :/ On the other hand, looks lovely on my laptop but maybe that’s because I started off from there.]

There’s a few errors about but oh well.

I like the coffee and the letter and the bookmark more but I guess that’s my fondness of graphics as opposed to design showing through.

Some bits maybe buggy and I haven’t been using the digitalskies.net logo but oh well.
It’s been more than a year and those constraints really make me refrain from changing the themes much.
[I believe I have about 10 unfinished designs that I’ve just given up on. Oh well.]

Name of this is dark coffee and there some sort of postcard letter reading theme going on too.

Tried my hand at rounded corners.. Rather wished everyone used alpha transparent compatible browsers so pretty drop shadows and the like could be used [my father is still using IE6 much to my dismay] but at least this looks good in 800 by 600 up and in all browsers I thiink. Still need more testing and fixing and the css of the comments could be changed from grey and the headers of the pages from blue but *shrug* I like colour.

But first I have to admit I have a problem.

So for the past week or two I’ve had a loss of appetite [which is pretty bad when I usually don’t feel like eating much anyway. But even ceasing my beloved junk food? Oh dear.], nausea and stomach pain. Top it all off with rather cold weather for a November’s day [it’s summer in 7 days!!] and over all, misery.

Yea. I should see a doctor sometime this week. Maybe Thursday as I’m free then. Or today. Though the nausea seems to have gone. Stomach still hurts though.
But what if it is all in my head? It’s not like I am spewing bile.
Maybe I just want to avoid my mother’s cooking. Goodness knows I look for any excuse to stay away from home though really I should be getting some bed rest.

I don’t know what subject I should do next semester and results are coming out soon on. Oh wait. Thursday afternoon to Friday morning. Gosh. I hope I get more than credits this semester. All distinctions for once? I have to make up for having gotten a mere pass last semester. I’d hate it so much if my wam dropped rather than rose. Was doing so well until the very ending. Loss of motivation? Maybe its more like losing the will to live.

I can’t confide in anyone.
Damnit.
Besides other people have their own issues.

And I hate holidays. It’s not just boredom. It’s watching days past so slowly like ants crawling. Losing track of this thing called time. Maybe the afterlife if there is such a thing is more interesting.
Actually, no. I go out quite a bit. It’s only been 2 weeks or so since my exams finished. I am not devoid of humanity. And yet…it is all so superficial. Is that the word?
Shallow.
Lacking in depth.
Or is that just a reflection of myself based on what I surround myself with nowadays? How I long to discuss on something, anything, just to provoke thoughts, a fight… well, without someone’s attempts to slyly insert outright lies to get the upper hand. Because that just defeats the point =_=’

Hm. I could do with changing this site around too.